Lately I find myself slipping into daydreams about going home.
What it will be like...
I find myself asking the same questions that I asked about Switzerland before I came here.
- Will I fit in?
- Will they accept me?
- Will I find a friend?
Haha.. sounds lame, I admit, but what can you expect? I have left you all for a year and things have happend. I've changed and there are going to be some aspects of me you will just have to adjust to.
I don't feel like being forced and
conformed into the cliques
and cliches of Inglemoor!
It [Âmerican High Schools, such as IHS]are too much like a film, looking back. Too many genres, groups, they promote a school of acceptance but after coming to Switzerland, the school doesn't seem as ideal as it was.
Don't get me wrong. I am proud to be a Viking and am happy to return, but there are some things (that is an exageration, a lot of things) that I will miss. I know Inglemoor is a great school, probably one of the best. However...
Switzerland was one of the first times I got a fresh start in my teen years with a group of people. I already know who I am and want to be, and I got to be that in Switzerland. What can I say, I am a bit socially awkward, but in Switzerland and with the exchangers, that was ok! That was me! And I was special. I was the American. I was the Magic Frog! I totally feel accepted here in Switzerland. I don't feel stupid here. I don't feel like I am being judged.
Sigh. America. America. America. Judgemental. Tiny boxes. Sufficating.
Sorry if you can't follow my train of thought here..... it is still unclear in my brain as well.