I had a really really rough time the other day.
I could go into details... but I already wrote that blog.
I wrote my "pity for Maggie" such blog and don`t intend to post it.
Cause who wants to hear that crap?
Some friends and even my real Mom have helped me out and I am back on track.
But why not tell you what God is showing me and what I have gotten from this.
Last night, after I said good bye to my mom on IM, I started to cry and then pray.
And here is what I have gotten...
This is only just the beginning for me. I am going to be pressed from all sides like never before. I have a feeling that what I experienced was only a little part of the pain that I may feel here. There is going to be so much more. There are going to be many nights where I go to bed crying.
(I admit I am a bit scared)
And hence, I need to have God with me every moment.
I need to check my every action with him.
I need to put on my armor each day and head out with a smile on my face.
I gotta face each day
And God will be with me every moment.
I need to really humble myself. Just listen to others words and not defend myself. I need to put myself in a position of humility.
I was raised in a society quiet different from that.
I am here to learn humility.
Side note: Allison.. what is your email address??