Friday, October 12, 2007

Pity Party for Maggie? Nay. What God is showing me.

I had a really really rough time the other day.


I could go into details... but I already wrote that blog.


I wrote my "pity for Maggie" such blog and don`t intend to post it.


Cause who wants to hear that crap?


Some friends and even my real Mom have helped me out and I am back on track.


But why not tell you what God is showing me and what I have gotten from this.


Last night, after I said good bye to my mom on IM, I started to cry and then pray.


And here is what I have gotten...


This is only just the beginning for me. I am going to be pressed from all sides like never before. I have a feeling that what I experienced was only a little part of the pain that I may feel here. There is going to be so much more. There are going to be many nights where I go to bed crying.


(I admit I am a bit scared)


And hence, I need to have God with me every moment.


I need to check my every action with him.


I need to put on my armor each day and head out with a smile on my face.


I gotta face each day


And God will be with me every moment.


I need to really humble myself. Just listen to others words and not defend myself. I need to put myself in a position of humility.


Humility.


I was raised in a society quiet different from that.


I am here to learn humility.


I think.

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Side note: Allison.. what is your email address??

2 comments:

cat said...

Wow Maggie!

That blog was really good! And it must have been somewhat hard to post I imagine too! I am so proud of what you are doing and how you are dealing with it!I am so glad that you have GOd right there next to you every step of the way! Maggie, I love you and hope you know that I a m there!

Love lots and more!

Caitie

allison said...

maggie, was that question directed at me or another person named "allison"?