Thursday, August 2, 2007

Things To Do

To Do List
[this list self distructs in 5 days - so you better do it fast]

  • Fill in address book with important contacts
  • Send out newsletter alerting people of blog updates
  • Reply to bajillions of MySpace messages and Emails
  • Reciept and Scraps Journal
  • Blog
  • Prepare external hard drive
  • Get debit card
  • Make card of contact info to carry in wallet
  • Pack
  • Make list of stuff to buy
  • Pack stuff bought
  • Clean shoes
  • Do wash
  • Wash self
  • Get together with Caitie & Jenny
  • Get together with Monica & Rachel
  • Babysit Jack and Wyant
  • Photograph Nick
  • Host family gathering
  • Write thank you letters
  • Mail off turkey's and Ashley's "item"
  • Burn off Seattlite CD's plus more for me
  • Clean room
  • Clean back room
  • Prepare Carry On
  • Iron shirt and underwear
  • Get picture CD to mom
God... I can't do this on my own. I'm running low on energy and feel like I just can't keep going. I'm ready to stop now. Ready to press that pause button on life. With you, I know I can do this. Because you have told me that if I rely on you for my strength, so much more is possible. I pray that you will be with me threw this entire year and as I pack. I pray for patience, wisdom, understanding, discernment, and strength. I pray for a good nights rest, that tomarrow I'll be healthier and my throat won't hurt as bad and that the amoxicillin won't make me nausaus. Thank you so much for this upcoming year. I'm looking forward to it so much... and I know you'll be right beside me every step of the way. You'll get on that plane with me so really I have nothing to worry about. I'm to be anxious about nothing... and just pray to you when I have worries... but I still do, which I guess is silly. You know what's happening in the end and everything is just a step closer to your final plan, so I just need to live my life for you. I pray that I do that, live for you God. I want to be your servant. Give me a servants heart.. I want to serve. Why God? Why am I so selfish? Why am I so eager to please myself and think of myself. To think that I'm always right. It's so wrong. I hate that part of me. But it's you who can change me. So be with me now,

Your daughter,



Hilary said...

aww. I don't know you very well, but I believe you are a good person. Don't think that you're selfish at all! And as for God, he will be there with you every step of the way no matter how horrible of a person you think you are (though you are not horrible!).

Hey can you add me to your newletter? My email is my MSN messenger email.

Anonymous said...

Hey there! You dont know me but i saw you on cultures-shocked and im going to be an exchange student in argentina this year. its so great to see other christian exchangers! really, its so encouraging just to know that there are other people going through the same things. "i lift my eyes to the hills, where does my help come from, my help comes from the Lord, who made the heavens and earth" psalm 121. have a great year!!